As My Lips said Goodbye

I wanted to cry when my lips said the words.
I thought I would sob as the pain welled up inside me
No tear fell from my eyes, no tears formed in these dry orbs
My heart snapped into pieces and yet I could not cry.

As my lips said goodbye

This limbo we made for our selves was hell.
We held so tight to our disappointments,
Clung so desperately to our hurts;
We began to use our love as a weapon.

As my lips said goodbye

I wanted to die.
My breath caught in my throat
Causing the words to strangle me
Yet no tears fell from these eyes, no tears formed in their dry sockets.

As my lips said goodbye

I tried not to count the days.
I tried to see the love as it began
We shared nothing but rapture.
My life over flowed with immeasurable joy.

As my lips said goodbye

No sobs broke free; no tears fell from my eyes
Not one tear came to deliver me.
I felt my lips part and heard the words
Yet I never let go…

Time together

What could I change
of our time together-
perhaps to lengthen the days.

Loves Lament

Shadows and shadows
of a love no more.
I chase them and chase them
like a rich mans whore.
I bash my teeth and rent my clothes 
pull out my hair and moan in my woes.
Deceived and betrayed 
bereft and alone I laid.
Darkness swallows my  piteous cry.
My mind screams and begs my heart to die.
Foolish and weeping thing that it is
to miss a one such as his.
Who with velvet tongue and ease
captured that willing organ in me.
Follow him I did with pleasure
and gave him all love unmeasured.
Now the tide has turned 
love from me is spurned.
To give all I had
was foolish indeed.
Were I to have been warned,
I would not have paid heed.
To love and give love
was my hearts desire and need.
My own actions I admit and claim
have brought me to this folly and pain. 
I've learned my lesson
this I state.
I vow, yet again
on true love...
I will wait.

Reality

Just before dawn~I wake and remember~you are gone.

Shared

Words and music played in tune
in my mind and in his room.
Incense and candles burn
while he and me our natures learn.